there is a definable loneliness
smoking a cigarette for
light with the only lover i
can have near death one
full sized bed over. this
place isn’t familiar. solitude
is easiest without light,
i put it out, write on the
bathroom floor in an economy
motel that i fear in many ways.
this is probably one of my favorites of yours
me rhyming my old version of Kanye West’s “Two Words”
enjoy!
this is my heart. from a very hitched part of our developing (forever) relationship. i have no clue how to explain my feelings.
Saturday April 29, 2012
Admittedly, I wrote yesterday’s poem in heat spired scathe.
Leaving out the long talk
me banging on chained shut doors crying &
double sided consoling held close
later
counting coins to dollars to buy & break French bread
before trying to put my whole…
Aleister Crowley & Tennis & Being Happy
Salt & Light
Wounds curate
froth fester-val
top spinning goth
Milk strung arc
Habit shed
Light on devil
science view dew’s
Attempts explaining
Superstition salt
Struck frigid
as Air,
says He
he says
No
with no
in mind No is
mined no?
i’ll refrain from stigma euphemisms,
ingratiating isn’t a trait of mine, contrary
to the green skin sheen. it’s a bad
time to catch spring fever, photosynthesizing
mental still shots of budding something’s
cryptically inclined to define the spectrum of my
instability, or, rather,…
i really don’t want to be that dude, but whatever because no matter if other people like this or not it means a big fucking deal to me, and since i’m a reader, too, that’s perfectly acceptable, too.
yeah, so, basically, rachel’s kid sister is way better at poetry than the rest of us. just give up. i’m going to, at least.a poem by my 8 year old sister.
wonderful meter, & she doesn’t feel
the need to rhyme.
she is mind blowing.
0.
I FEEL bad for whosoever couldn’t particular their age / vantage point when the video for California Love came out & set all a-hex — like i feel
when people tell me their pets die. i can’t empathize with one of those so much
as the other, which is to say: OUT ON BAIL FRESH
1.
OUT OF JAIL; imagine Pac, still incarcerated, when Suge Knight, probably smoking a fat black cock of a cigar in spite of the jailhouse employee’s pleading against it, so excited,
knowing he is going to get
2.
OUT OF JAIL; imagine a contract
worth multi-millions
in residuals, point
shaving, and inflamed interest
rates on advancements for the cash Pac flashed to Mtv
3.
CAMERA CREWS, who I imagine having also shot Pac’s
Madonna interview while imprisoned. Jose Canseco, Big Daddy
Kane, & Kabballa were all sucked
dry from that bitch before stupid speculation about Britney Spears & X-Tina. What about A-Rod? What About Nick Names Generally? String Simply
4.
PAINTED Suggesting Greater Symbolism? Cocks & Vaginas? soon as i step on the scene i’m hearing hoochies screaming.
shitty poems/dirty poet
i dont wash
my fingernails
because im trying to hide
that i work as manual laborer
for a living i clean
to keep you
guessing — hoping
i can be discreet
occupationally i dont recognize myself
through such rulers maybe
one day i can fool
a way into an MFA
Man of ism
# 274
the more they give proof of
exploiting materials
the whole effort of
beginning the day has in multiplying
ways to penetrate layers of the
seers make seers for us
a question of discovering the means to
Rimbaud in rank of
effectiveness has been
years in forms
of possibilities that goes from pure
to graphic fixing of images
through paranoiac-critical
spontaneous method of
objectification
of associations and interpretations
it is clearly paranoiac that
to obtain a double image is the representation of
without anatomical modification
the time of another is
one that also is of deformation or
artificial arrangement
obtaining such a has been thanks to
the violence of skillfully used
coincidences exploit
the appearance of the second image in case
of obsessive
image image of a
image of a prolonged continuing
paranoiac existence of obsessive
enough a third image the image of
and so on until images degree
capacity of thought
we also know the
creation of
considering shall let you
research the mechanism of inspiration
by the discovery of certain pro-
cedures of a poetic nature are capable of elaboration
of the plastic from the domain of conscious faculties
Man of ism
# 276
cleanings decided the symbolism of
obsession to aid hallucinatory faculties a
series of designs out of randomly
paper rubbing pencil the
fact designs progressive
suggestions that occur as happens
with hypnagogic visions the material
questioned images of
probably to reveal the prime
produce of this cause
being aroused i came the same
sorts of materials that enter my
veins of a piece of sack-
ing the strokes of
thread put together
rubbing under
Eve, the only one that still exists. Later, by restricting my own active
participation more as to enlarge the part of
the faculties of came like a spectator
pictures such as
vision
has been
itself to a
function based on representations
provoked by the realization of
synthesis this body of
construction
was envisaged as
the mobile and mute ball
posed terms of
with the proper to sculpture a
symbolic room for formal
erotic fantasies and desires depend
on the imagination of plastic
it is important to consider
the elaboration of
the capital
Man of ism
# 236
beyond the depressing
divorce together
at whatever cost the relationship
destroyed the most precious
awareness
and internal development as it is magic
until we virtue feeling
the one universal feeling
of action and dream being a function
of interpenetration and
it still awaits the
fusion of these
sought we
seek render more and more
as ours
repeat the turn
from the mo-
ment that takes
cause from the outside and gives
reason to attempt to turn that it
will attempt to twist abandon
until very important
to prove attempt through
innocuous merchandise
a working
grasp of contradictions
more than the other
sudden rehabilitated here is
little here is
able to put on airs as
that airs as protector
mask even more insolent
on the we expect
propaganda services will take advant-
age of the situation to flood with the insanities
that makes available
newspapers books films and tours of the
not very happy joining
works plays
and brought into
various considerations
to keep ourselves alert
Man of ism
# 290
start all over around noon
with money you keep stuffing
your face without ration
having been so symbolically your
spit in your face
the providential eye of a
frozen moustache brushing off vomit
the shadow that’s not
hell manage manage still man-
age if you’re familiar with
cloth that sells a meter when
it rolled their genitals up in
the sea worn
hell style
to be fashionable again God is
going to come
with the sea to sweep
scrapings from the
promise that time
up in the Supreme Being
won’t come according to rules
that the time has come refuse to swallow this whole
mess of good-for-nothing bastards who urge you
pay attention to
hell look at the rather
curious rat big rat well-guarded
to be yours
since never
and since universal in case
it is best to have all
Man of ism
# 278
operation is
fact dialectically reconciling
perception so violently
the fact
thrown over the abyss
construction permitted
perceptions an objective
through their tendency to
assert perceptions a nature
bewildering and
urgently call for
that large something
Man of ism
# 304
as other creatures desire
less and less capable of appreciating the
scale constructed
in humility knows
what surrounds the most
of doing is poetic intuition
finally unleashed seeks not
forms boldly to
be in a position to
structure the world alone
thread that back road of
Gnosis
in eternal mystery
no one has better
book is
absurd to the human privileged place
in the universal distinguished
possession of prerogative
reality is a state of manifestation
and merely one among others in
degrees of assigned
nature the limitations of
place neither
must consider
being the state we fact
ourselves or special
a very relative and point
that we are mani-
festation borrowed from
always to fall under
elementary sense may
divided the world